This weekend was great. I was with HoSHI from Thursday at 3pm till today at 5pm, excluding class. All the time I spent with her was wonderful, even thought we didn't do much. I realized how important she is to me and I feel like something is missing when she's not here. We have been through some serious things in the past 2 months. I know if we can make it through this, everything else will seem down hill.
We had a really good convo while I was at work about how important she is and why people like her so much. She's so humble to the point that she doesn't see what others see in her, she doesn't even notice how special she is. During this conversation, my eyes were opened to how I'm so blessed to have met a person like her and to have her love me the way that she does. Her friend was right, there aren't a lot of ppl in the world like my baby and I'm going to do whatever is in my power to keep her in my arms and no one else's. I can't be so nonchalant about how much I care for her cause some one will come and snatch her away if I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. I'm am so curious to see what else I can learn from her and see how our relationship will grow in the future.
HoSHI also brought up a valid point about this other woman in my life and our so called relationship. I have a tendency to let people run over me, do and say what they want and I sit back and do nothing. I don't know how to assert myself and be ok with people not being my friend. It's kinda sad that I'm just now realizing this at the age of 20 but, better late then never *shoulder shrug*. It's time for me to not be complacent with stagnant relationships in my life. I need to say what's on my mind, and not hold my tongue just because I may lose a friend cause those aren't the friends I need to have in my life
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