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Today was another long day spent in the prestigious science center. I’m telling you, they just need to put dorm’s right next to that building cause I’m always there. I took a long ass nap after I got back at 7. The plan was to wake up at 8ish, do some work till Real World, watch it and come back to the room and finish up my work… What happened in actuality was that I slept till 10, and watched tv till 11:30, then I fu@ked around on the computer till 12am. My sleep schedule is so, so, so messed up. And I still have to finish this damn lab.

I watched Real World in PRiSS’s room and when I knocked on the door, LizO was there. I wasn’t expecting that and I had just woke up so I was a little thrown off. I knew that it was bound to happened but I feel like LizO and I are growing apart. Her and PRiSS are always together and I don’t see or talk to LizO often. I knew this was going to happen cause of the greek thing but for a while I thought it wasn’t going to. Last semester we still talked and hung out but now, when you see one, you usually see the other. Now, I know this is petty but another one of my issues are friendships. Go back in time w. me…LOL

When I was in elementary school I had a best friend in the 3rd grade and she was Japanese. I went to her house after school, we at lunch together and sat with each other during assembly’s. This white came along and started hanging out with her too and we kinda grew apart cause she began spending more time with her then with me. It crushed me and I was bitter for a longtime.

Friendships are really important to me cause I use my friends as outlets for when I’m stressed, to share things with, to get advice…you know, the typical friend things. I had a similar experience to the one I had in elementary school in high school. The only difference was that we just grew apart on our own, I was so hurt cause I no longer had that one person that I could rely on to stand by me no matter what… So the notion that LizO and I are growing apart kinda worries me cause I don’t wanna lose her as a friend. I don’t wanna think about it cause I kinda feel like I’m looking into this too much. However, if it did come to that, I don’t think I’d be as devastated because I have HoSHI to be there for me. I’d still be hurt though.

I have more but this one is already too long. I’ll just write tomorrow or, I may just add another one before I go to sleep. I got a lot on my mind.

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