Fall to Pieces...

Well… I decided to stop being so selfish and I told HoSHI the truth about what happened over break. It’s all thanks to Ms. Priss who reminded me that I have a conscience and LizO for being my voice of reason. I just knew that as soon as I told her what happened, that it would be over. I’d lose her for good, as a friend and as companion. I even made a list of reasons why I should and shouldn’t tell her but on Monday I finaly found the balls to be honest and tell her…
SOMETHING SHE ALREADY KNEW!!!
She told me that she knew I wasn’t telling her everything the first night we talked. I had no idea that she knew, honestly. I was surprised when she told me she did. I was thinking to myself, "why didn’t you just say something? I would have told you asap" But I guess that defeats the purpose of the whole honesty portion of the relationship. The only reason I didn’t say anything was because I knew I’d lose her. I know that’s a bad reason not to tell her, but it was what was going through my head. At any rate, things went a lot better then I thought….WAY BETTER. She’s going to give me another chance and we’re going to work through this. I’m so glad cause even thought she had reason to leave, I would have been devastated to lose her. She’s been such a big part of my life for the past 5 months and I’ve learned so much from her. She’s said before that I’d get over it quickly but I don’t know how true that is.

THANK YOU FOR KEEPING ME IN YOUR LIFE. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH

So outside of all that fun stuff, I’m sick, which is making everything harder. I’ve missed 1 day from 2 class and I haven’t done any work. I don’t wanna do sh!t… all I wanna do is sleep. And it’s supposed to snow for the next 3 days…WTF. This weather is not conducive for my recovery.

We’re supposed to be having a party on Friday. All I have to say is jello-shots and twister…Need I say more. I hope it goes as well as planed. As long as certain ppl don’t show up, things should run smoothly.

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