Weathering the Storm...

My official count is 28 days, I’m ready, I’m so ready to be back in that place where I can hop on public transportation and go some place and sit and chill. Where the women are beautiful and unique and not white. Where I can work and shop at H&M. Where my mommy is, HOME. Ahhh, I can’t wait. But until then I have to keep up with this little job of mine called school.

I was so stressed out on Monday, OMG, I didn’t think I was going to make it. I finally cried, I mean really cried. Like cryed so loud that my room mates could hear me. I didn’t do my paper and I missed part of class cause in my state of anguish, I set my alarm wrong. It was rough but talking to PRisS helped me out a lot. HoSHI and I talked for the last time for a while. We need time to disassociate ourselves from the 7-month relationship we were just in so that we can be friends again. I look forward to when we speak again and even more, when we see each other. I just hope that this separation doesn’t harden her heart even more towards me. I need her in my life and hopefully during this time, she will see that I’m important to her. Whatever the case may be, I just want HoSHI to be healthy and happy. If that means that I can’t be in her life, then so be it, but I pray that that’s not the case…

I got paid today and I can finally get some CHIPOTLE! I’ve been craving it since Sunday after I saw Sin City which by the way was quite an entertaining movie. I’m going to get it tomorrow cause I wanna enjoy it w. friends and all our schedules don’t work for today. I’m also trying my best not to use my limited funds to support my bad habit…We’ll see how that goes.

Right now I’m exhausted and I’m going to sleep for a while. I have to go to a movie tonight for film and do some more writing…


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