27 April 2005

Two Sided Story

DISCLAIMER- This refers to me and does not make references to anyone else but ME

Side I
When you push for something to happen, sometimes you force things to go in a direction that they shouldn’t go and wouldn’t if you had just been patient and waited.
Side II
If you wait too long or don’t push at all you may be seen as a push-over or someone that doesn’t go after what you want.

It’s a double edge sword that must be used with caution. It’s hard to know what to do cause each situation is different and sometimes requires a different technique. Personally, I think I can be very impatient with situations and I just want things to be clear from jump. When they are not, I’m constantly working in the direction of or trying to get things on an equal playing field so that all parties involved, knows what’s on the table. The problem is, most situations aren’t this cut and dry…here in lies my problem.

If I push to hard, I think I may push her away but I don’t wanna sit around while everyone else jumps in front of me. I want her to know that I’m here but that I’m not going to be like all the others little gnats that boost her ego and give her attention. I’m above that and I know I deserve better. I know I need to just allow time take its course cause this situation involves so much. There’s no way that things can be organized into nice little piles so that after a little conversation and some effort, they’ll all be organized in a nice strait row. I’ve made my point and now all I can do is have patience and wait. If I loose her then, I loose her. But with time… things will turn out the ways they should.
PATIENCE

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