PRIDE Weekend

Friday
After missing the 12:50 bus to NYC, I reluctantly took the bus to the train station to catch the 3:20 bus to the city. I switched my ticket over, hopped on the bus and was on my way. Once we got threw NJ, we hit some traffic, serious traffic like sit for 5 min at a time. Our bus driver took us through NJ to get into the city and that tacked on another hour to our trip but I wasn’t complaining. I was just happy to get there at 9. I met LizO at the station and we proceeded to go to Sunshine’s hotel cause there wouldn’t have been enough time to go all the way to Brooklyn and come back to the city. Sunshine and I changed and Nikki having been on a bus for 10hrs just stayed at the hotel room. LizO left to go home and Sunshine and I left for the club. It was more mixed then I expected in terms of the people that were there…white, asian, older, and just strange folk. But it was another good NYC club experience. The dancers were wonderful as expected and I enjoyed the work of Lady Madonna, who’s a dancer from NY. Oh yes, the highlight of the night was when Ms. Oohzee pulled the board’s own Sheena on the stage to have her way with her…So jealous but it was a wonderful sight to see.
Saturday
I didn’t get back to lizO’s house till 7 sat morning and slept a couple of hours. LizO made me some waffles (I love you LizO) and I played with her brothers and sister…aaww, gotta love quality time with the family. I was supposed to go to a party with her later on that night but after doing some talking she said she didn’t mind if I went out with folks from the board. I felt bad but I got dressed and went out anyway. At this point I’m good with the whole subway system and got to Sunshine’s hotel. Peach was there and it was really nice to see her. In a way things were kinda like they were when we all went out to dinner the weekend before, except our feelings were switched. Instead of her wanting to be all over me, I wanted to be all over her but I couldn’t so I just looked pathetic, till I got some liquor in my system then I was fine. There were 11 of us in the hotel and we were just talking and chillin’….good times. Eventually we left and went into the village, but we didn’t get there till midnight…I think. Everyone was so drunk or high at that point no one really knew. We all go on the train and were being extra loud and gay…we had all the white ppl, laughing at us. Once we got down the village we walked down the pier and on the way we bumped into HoSHI and her friends. I was really drunk and wasn’t paying too much attention to her but it was nice to see her and she did look very good. We also saw Sheena and everyone was molesting her like right in the street. We finally got down to the pier but it was closed so 9 of us went back to Sunshine’s hotel, the other 2 went back to their own. OH MAN…sh!t popped off in the hotel and it was fun times. I’ve taken the “what happened in NY stays in NY” oath so I can talk about it. Just know that everyone, all 9 of us that is, had a very good time. I ended up staying there cause by the time people started leaving I didn’t feel like going back to LizO’s
....WoW Saturday *grin*
Sunday
When back to LizO’s at 10am but everyone was gone for church. Since the parade started at noon, I literally had to shower change and leave right back out to meet up with Sunshine and drop my bag off with her stuff, so I wouldn’t have to go back to Brooklyn and pick it up. I felt really bad that I didn’t get to say bye to her family but I did call and talk to her mommy, which made me feel a little better. But, I dropped my bag off with out any issues and met up with Sunshine and Nikki. Saw some of the floats and got a couple of beads. I just wish we all could have been together like the night before, but everyone was spread out. I saw Sunshine and Nikki off then headed down to the village to meet up with everyone else. It took me forever to find them cause the street was all blocked off but I did bump into cute Eb from high school. It’s just something about her that I really like but I doubt anything would happen b/t us. It was still nice seeing her. After 20mins, I found everyone and we walked through the mass of gay people to the pier. I couldn’t stay too long cause I had to go uptown to pick up my bag and get to the train station. I met a couple of other people and saw a lot of cute folks...I LOVE GAY PEOPLE I was going to meet LizO in the village but it would have taken for ever for me to find her so we just met up at the train station. I didn’t get to debrief her about all that happen on Saturday or that day cause my mind was all over the place. I headed to my bus and I saw the most disturbing thing I’ve ever seen in my life. This man, he looked homeless kinda, was caring this girl screaming at the top of her lungs to put her down through the station. Now, this wasn’t a “I’m not getting my way so I’m going to scream bloody murder”, you could tell that she was in trouble. The thing about it was that everyone just stood there in silence and watched him walk by, no one stopped him. There were 3 police officers that were in the direction he was walking so I can only assume that they stopped him. Or at least, that’s what my mind was telling me. I was really bothered by that and I still see it when I close my eyes. I was horrible. But I got back home safely.

Today I didn’t do much of anything…I talked to Peach last night and apologized for acting stupid and she did the same. Then she sent me a txt talking about I miss my baby, and I honestly didn’t know she was talking about me. I’m getting mixed signals from her and I don’t know what she wants. But I think I’m going to go see her tomorrow. I know it was long but that’s probably the only interesting thing I’ll be able to write about for a while.

:amel:

Are We There Yet!?!

Well, well well. It is 9am on Friday June 24 and I am sitting in my home. You might inquire why I’m still here, being that all that I’ve talked about for the past 3 weeks is my trip to New York. You know, the one in which I was supposed to be leaving for yesterday. Allow me to elucidate you as to why I’m sitting at home. I’m am waiting for my check to arrive at my job so that I can…

a) pick it up cause it wasn’t directly deposited into my account
*mind you I set direct deposit up 3 weeks ago
b) deposit it in my account cause money is essential when traveling
That may not seem like a big deal, to be honest, it really isn’t. It’s just that things have been going right since the beginning of this week for my trip. I’ve lost a day, and now, I probably won’t even get there till much, much later then I anticipated. I could complain about the other little stupid stuff like how I couldn’t sleep last night cause I never do when I get ready to go on trips, I could have worked more this week and other insignificant things that I won’t mention. I just wanna be there, not to mention, I’ve told LizO multiple times when I’m coming and I don’t wanna mess up her daily schedule. AAAAHHHHH…..*sigh*

On a good note, I spent time with Peach on Wednesday. Uncle Robert grilled us burgers that were so good…mmm. I met some one else from the board and laughed at Peach and Toya while they were watching the Floetry DVD and enjoying a bit too much. While there I also got the opportunity to, hold, dance, consume, sing to and touch Peach’s body…and the pleasure was all mine *grin* I look forward to doing it again. From the way things are going in terms of conversation, this looks like this will be another summer thing. I’m ok with that, but we’ll see what happens. She’s talking to other people and so am I but you never know. I finally talked to the artists, which made me very happy. I had been trying to talk to her all week but you are a busy lady. We had a nice brief conversation in which I learned a little more about her. All I can say is that I am very eager to learn more about you.

I think I’m going to go back to sleep cause I’m really tired and I can’t do anything for another 3 hrs. But, I’m determined to have a good day and enjoy the time that I do spend in New York…I’m sure I’ll have a lot to say when I get back

:amel:

(^_^) Summer's Looking UP (^_^)

I haven’t been here in a little while and I was going to give a quick update but before I do, I’m in the process of having a convo with HoShi about visiting her when I come to NY. I wanna see her but her new friend is going to be there and I’m not really anxious to meet her. However, another friend of ours is going to be down there and I’d like to see him. She got mad cause I said I’d come to see him but not to see her. My response was, I didn’t know that you cared. HoShi still isn’t completely out of my system and im not sure if it’s because of the way things ended between us or just because of the nature of our relationship. She still has a way of getting to me and and I don’t know how to deal with it. I just want us to be friends but I don’t know if we’ll ever get there with the wall that she still has up against me and the way I still let her get to me. It perplexes me and I’m at a loss of what to do…

But about that Update…
:WoRK:
Work is cool, I’m finding that how fast and how much I enjoy my shift depends on who I’m working with. If I’m with the black folk, it’s a blast, we laugh, sing talk and my 4 hrs is up in no time. And I usually end up staying a little longer. When I work with the white folk, my shift goes really slow and I’m ready to get out of there as soon as my 4 hrs is up. Haven’t heard back from the gap yet and I keep saying I’m going to call the. I’ll get on it….eventually
:HoMe:
Mommy finally got her check and we went to the grocery store. A week with out food in the house is not the move. My appetite has definitely decreased after that one. And I got to do some much needed laundry…oh it was so necessary. I got my license renewed and its and official horizontal MD license…LOL. I didn’t smile for the first time and I don’t know how I feel about that but such is life. It’s mine till June 2010
:NYC Trip:
Right in tune with the lack of funds, I still haven’t gotten my ticket for my trip. I’ve already borrowed money from my aunt so she was out, mommy didn’t have it goose didn’t really have it and it wouldn’t have got here in time if she sent it. So it looked like I was out of luck till Friday when I get paid. I would just have to pay $65 and just be there for the weekend. But…I called my friend Keshia cause I hadn’t talked to her in a while just to see how she was. I told her about the situation and she was like, how much is it going to be, and I told her. Then she said, I’ll send it western union. I’m like are you serious…she was like I don’t know why you didn’t ask me before. Gotta love friends with funds that can help when you need it. So, I’m going to go get my ticket tomorrow and I don’t have to worry about it. Now, I just need to make sure my direct deposit is set up. NYC HERE I COME!!!!
:SoCial BuTtErFlY:
Well, in the past week, I’ve met several wonderful ladies that I’ve been talking to. 3 from the board and 1 from Downelink. I’m such and internet junkie, I know. I’ve met 3 of them but one lives in PA and I won’t get to do the meet and greet till July when she comes to visit. They are all pretty interesting and they’re all different. I’ve gotten to know one of the ladies very well (in one way *smile*) but the others, I still have a lot to learn. It’s nice to have ppl to talk to. It helps you not to focus on all that’s going on with me and get to know some one else.
This Saturday was out board dinner at Kobe, which was fun. I met some new people and laughed with some previous acquaintances. I didn’t meet Sapphic this weekend either, she’s disappeared somewhere. I’m supposed to go to a concert with her but I got a feeling it’s not going to be happening.
Oh yes, I was told by a new acquaintance of mine that I act as if I don’t care and that I seem as though I’m not a good friend. I was honestly very shocked by this statement and tried really hard to listen to her logic but I was truly put off by it. It all came about because of an IM conversation, and we all know how those can be misinterpreted. I ain’t beat, and that’s all I’m going to say about it.

:amel:

11. 06.04

Yesterday was wonderful I was out like a real grown up…all day. I met up with this girl from high school named Courtney to go to capital pride. We took metro down to Dupont and since we got there a little early we parked ourselves under a tree in the shade cause it was a little toasty. We walk 2 miles in the blazing sun, up new Hampshire Ave over to U street and down Massachusetts in the Dyke March. 500+ gay folk, of all walks of life. I didn’t think about it at the time but it was pretty cool that all those people were out there in support of gay rights. It was an good experience cause I had never done anything like that before. The topless dykes that were behind my friend and I kinda make my stomach turn but it was still cool. That’s one thing about some white folks, they can be really free with themselves, not shaving, wearing or not wearing whatever… I admire it their free-spirtedness. After the march we got Chipotle and this cute chick that I had spotted earlier was there. I kid you not, I would have talked to her but I think she was with her girl and…..she was deaf. I’m sure the communication barrier could have been worked around but, I just watched and admired from a far as usual. After lunch we had, 3 hrs before the parade started so we just sat in the park. It was really nice, I need to do stuff like that more often.

The parade was short but the MC from the edge was there…”the one we call”…Shaquita Lee. There was this random boy vouging and there were floats representing different cultures. Then of course there were politicians, men in leather, church groups, lesbian drummer groups and bands also followed in suite. It was an interesting parade. I’m sure it’s going to be nothing like the one in NYC but I’ll let you know when I see it. Bri and this girl from the board came up to see the parade but couldn’t find parking and caught the tail end of it. Meeting her was and experience because she left a bad impression. I have no desire to get to know her…she was very indecisive and just soured my mood. Bri and I dropped her off all the way in Woodbridge and she and I drove to Adams Morgan to go bar hopping. At this point I had been out since noon, hadn’t been able to change and felt pretty icky but I made the most of it…Actually, I had a blast. I saw a couple of people from high school, spent money I shouldn’t have, found this bar that had great live reggae music, saw a fight and saved Bri from being molested by to foreign guys. The highlight was definitely that reggae spot…gotta go back.

The other highlight was talking to this guy who’s soul purpose for being out there was to get numbers. He was explaining to me how the whole “grabbing of the arm thing” works at getting girls attention. I was thinking to myself that’s a horrible way to get a girls attention. It’s disrespectful and it really doesn’t show that you’re interested. The way some guys operate really pisses me off. They just think that by putting themselves out there that girls are just supposed jump at the opportunity to talk to them. I just shook my head at all the guys that tried to talk to ladies that I went out with.

This has been a long enough entry so I’ll do more later. I wanna go talk to logic

:amel:

Nothing New

I’m working and have been everyday this week at Bath & Body Works. I’ve met most of the staff and they’re mostly black. It’s cool cause I’ve never worked anywhere where most of the employees are. There’s this cute girl that works there who looks really familiar. I’m sure I’ve seen her on BP or downlink or something. I feel kinda weird talking to her for some reason but I’m still new. I get paid on Friday and it couldn’t come any sooner.

It’s all set, on the 18th I finally get to meet Sapphic. We’re going to the zoo and then going out to dinner with some people from the board. I’m really looking forward to it. Of course I’m scheduled to work that day, but I’ll switch with some one, no, big deal. The thing I’m concerned about is not having the cash to go out. This has been the story of my life and I’m sick of it. I just wanna enjoy my summer. But I’m going, no mater what

:amel:

Socialite Funk

Sometimes, a lot of times, I feel like I just don’t measure up to people that are in my age bracket. There’s such a push to be an individual and to do your own thing. I feel everyone is evolving and becoming their own independent person while I’m just stand around watching. All my life, I’ve always wanted to be some one that stood out or some that drew others to me. In primary school, I fell short of that, thus the reason I hated middle and high school. In college, it’s been a little better. Coming home and having down time to think has got me wondering, where do I stand now…Who am I really. Maybe I am that person that stands out to people cause I’m not changing, cause I’m consistent with my thoughts and feelings. Perhaps, I’m still lost like most of the other people I wanna be like cause they are constantly changing and don’t know who they are themselves. In either case, I’m still single, don’t have any prospectives (at least that I’m interested in) and feel inadequate.

Just once, I wish a “cool” person would approach and befriend me
Just once, I wish some one I was actually interested in would take interest in me as well
Just once, I wish I wasn’t always pursuing people for their friendship or acquaintanceship for that matter

Granted, I could stop being one who pursues but then I wouldn’t have anyone and that would put me in an even worse funk then I’m already in. HoShi told me about this flaw of mine, how I pursue people no mater what they do to me. At the time, I reasoned that that’s how I’ve been since day 1. I mean there are people in the world that are “callers” and “callees”, people that are pursued and people that do the pursuing. She’s one who is pursued so I guess she wouldn’t have got it anyway….

You know, my social life isn't that bad and I’m not complaining. I mean it could definitely be worse, I’ve been there and done that. My socializing, I guess, isn’t where I’d like it to be. Not necessarily the things I do, but the people I do it with. I feel like things are one sided all the time with a lot of the people i hang out with. I'm going to stop right here, cause if i keep going, i'm going to start complaining and i've done enough of that above

:amel: