Tecate and a Newport Please

This weekend is PRIDE and as the week progresses, I’m getting really excited about it. A lot of folks are coming in from outta town and that's always a plus. Gotta open up the queer community to the outsiders so everyone's not connected by 2 people...ick. My mom said she wanted to come to the film festival part, which was quite shocking and amazing. But, I'd be more then happy for her to come with. Perhaps it will make her a little less homophobic, but it's most likely just wishful thinking.

I found this really great job with the Nation Wildlife Federation. I sent in my application, prayed about it and I just know the job is mine. I talked to the GMR folks and that's all set up for the first weekend of June. Oh, and how bout the hourly rate here is $17.20 opposed to $12 in Columbus...I LOVE BEING HOME! Me starting in June is perfect too cause, I’ll get my first pay check right in time for NYC PRIDE.

I really miss Simone and I can't wait for her to get back to the states. I've been thinking about her entirely too much for someone who’s supposed to be just a friend. I just miss having someone to talk to. I’m bored. I need social, peer to peer interaction. Some alone time would be good to, during the day I’m with my Goose and in the evening mommy wants time with me. I really just wanna go to someone’s place, smoke a Newport, drink a Tecate and relax with having to do anything for anyone.

I was browsing around dL and came across my ex's page and she's got some thing up about being shattered. So of course, I look through to see what's going on cause this broken window is symbolism for her relationship. Evidently her and her partner are going through some things and I’m not going to lie, I got very excited. Part of me kinda feels bad but the majority of me was thinking "HA" She's been through so much sh!t and requires a lot from whoever she's involved with. There are very few people who are willing to give so much of themselves plus put up with all her...various personality traits. I do hope everything works out cause Bailey doesn't have many other people to support her with all that she goes through. I’ve pretty much rendered her unimportant to me but if she needed help or just an ear to listen, I’d more then likely be there for her. It’s just my kind and compassionate heart. I could go on but I’ll stop here about Ms. Bailey

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College Graduate...Sorta

I am official home from Ohio Wesleyan University forev....well at least till January. You might ask yourself, "But amel, you were all set to graduate after the spring semester, what happened?” I'd say,"I'm so glad you asked, let me tell you. I failed chem II and since the class isn't offered over the summer nor during the fall semester, I have to return for the entire Spring semester of 2007 to take the one class that I need to get complete my course work and obtain my diploma. But I did get to walk”.Oh yes, how wack is that. And I can't take it at another school cause I’d just get credit for taking the class and not get the points for grad that i got in the class. SO...i will be going back to Ohio in January. Of course this means i can't get a serious job cause I’ll have to leave in 6 months. Since I’ll be here for longer then just the summer and I want to gain some independence from my mommy, I wanna start taking over my car insurance payments and I need to get health insurance, ie: I need to work. So I'll probably just go back to Bath and Body Works and do the GMR Bar Program. On a more positive note, I’ll be volunteering with the ARMI over the summer which I’m really excited about. I’m supposed to go out in the field sometime next week.

Besides working, I plan on making a lot of trips to PA. A particular lady that I’ve been talking to for a while lives there and now that I’m not in school, I have all the time that my finances allow for me to go out and visit her. I actually made a spontaneous visit out there on my way back from school. We were concerned that our first meeting was going to be a bit awkward but everything went very well. She’ll be in Ecuador for the next two weeks so I’m just SOL till she gets back.

Umm, my goose (Grandma) came out for graduation from Cali and will be here till July. I’m glad that she’s here cause her health isn’t the best HOWEVER, she is one of those older people who is set in her ways and can be very difficult to deal with at times, and she and my mommy don’t get along very well. I’m kind of the mediator between the two of them so this is going to be a long couple of months.

I said before that I was going to be writing in this more often and I didn’t I’m really going to try this time cause I have a felling some interesting things are going to happen this summer.

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